Tuesday, October 31, 2006

you can't get there from here

it always used to make me laugh that sketch on saturday night live, it was a weird jeopardy spoof where adam sandler and such had to give directions to some obscure place, and of course the winning answer was always "you can't get there from here". my favorite answer was the one where you have to turn right by the retahded kid selling fireworks.
awesome
but i think you can't get there when you don't know where here is.
i know where i am physically, but i can't get my bearings otherwise.
i don't know which end is up, i feel the wrong things, i say the wrong things, i do the wrong things. i feel and say and do all these things that have nothing to do with the person that i think i am
am i that person? am i the person that i don't know, the one who does and says and feels things that i don't understand or even like?
how does that happen?
how did i get here?
where was i?
was i there already and i didn't know it?
am i here?
or am i still there?

beuller? bueller?

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